My darlings, I love you, but you drive me nuts. I sometimes fantasize about dropping all three of you off somewhere and leaving you there. But I never ever will.
I will never abandon you, T, like your birthmom did.
I will never ignore your needs entirely, A, like all of your parents did.
I will never parentify you, S, like my mother did.
But my dear sweet children, sometimes I certainly wish I could.
I am doing the best I can and just hoping that I get points for not acting on the “kill the children” impulses. Because just because I do not act on my exhaustion by taking it out on you does not mean that I don’t feel like taking it out on you.
Seriously, I love you all. But I also REALLY DO NOT LIKE YOU a lot of the time.